1A gift for you, an Autumnal Playlist
Music is a good companion. One who helps you find words for the moments of life we are sometimes speechless. Music plus the month of October have been helping my soul find room to breath.
The month of October is a favorite for me and I have found that each time it comes around I am ready for it. It sometimes find me frazzled and disconnected but it brings me back to a posture of open handed living. I am more willing to open my hands and let go of the control I have been under the illusion was mine.
This year though, I carry the overwhelming grief that wants to remain embedded in my cells- with scenes I can not unsee, words that have hurt more than expected, and feelings of powerlessness that leave me feeling exhausted. So, I ground myself by standing under a tree and looking up. Then looking down at the blanket of leaves that tell me, “it’s ok exhale and let go-beauty and rest awaits.”
So, this playlist came from the desire to feel seen and heard. Yet the words were missing and I couldn’t even express to those closest to me how I was feeling. I found solace in letting these poems in music form serenade my soul. I have found peace in the walks under the fiery and golden capped branches while feeling very regal walking on a red carpet of leaves. I am cared for even when I can’t see the care and I am known in the letting go.
This is my gift to you in case you may have been feeling the same way, let music serenade your soul and let the leaves whisper invitations to let go. This mix will remind us of beauty in the little moments. It will help us process autumn feels that are hard to out into words, but realize that a song suffices. A cozy remembrance of autumns past, feelings felt, and cozy evenings.
I leave you with a breath prayer as we end this month.
Breath in : I can let go of worry
Breath out: for I know I am held.
Grace and peace.